I am not feeling good.. mentally and physically. Physically because im sick. It have been 2 days that i vomiting and diarhea. I just cant figure it out which food has gone bad... i am also having headaches and gastric and back ache... I really hate it..
there will be a mid sem on tuesday which i havent prepared yet. im either too busy sleeping or playing computer. i dont have the heart to study because i cant concentrate well.. partially its because im kip thinking of food... and being mad at HIM.....
I know i should not expect things back from HIM.... What i do comes from my heart and should not seek for any repayment because of the power of love... When he was sick, i turn my my friends offer to hang out, i look after him..... i not saying im a saint or so. i just want him to pay the same amount of attention as i have pay on him....
When he is sick, ill make sure he is fine, not starving and so on. when im sick, he wont ask how am i until i told him to ask me how am i.... i would skip going out with my friends so that i could make sure he have someone when he is in critical condition. although im not in critical condition now, but he would not even stay...
I know my position is lower than himself in his heart. No matter how many times he denies, i still knows the answers... After all, im not precious also. Sometimes, i really hate him.... There were lots of time, i wanted to say the word.... but im not strong enough myself.. issit because im too used to him, or i can only do so when we are apart from each other?? im feeling very tired.. i tried v hard not to care so much.. but he really didt live up to my expectation.. should i continue to go on? should i talk to him about it? i dont know...
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just tell him lo... let him know what are you thinking... =)
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